used to recognize how i shifted gears, in matter of speed and pace, where in moments and periods i would excell at rapid fire chaotic speed of wit banter decision making and wide scale management. think tapas and conference. the other gear, a solemn pace of listening, weary of emotion, self recognition, slower but more convicted realizations. think tea, go, domination, curiosity.

and at one point i thought of these gears as binary, to think it is only possibke to choose one at a time. this was one gear, to embrace only one side, and that choosing a ‘playstyle’, embracing a consistnecy in one manner, would be only way to experience fuller growth and true learning and deepening. but now, if we call it a gear again, shifted to think that both are necessary and relevant in their own right and, now needed, instead of hindering, a true learning and accomplishment and forward movement.

with these 2 gears, one shifting inside the other, could imply a 3rd layer of gear, amusing outside of these 2, with purpose i am undure of. could it potentially be controlling the acknowledging of these gears, dissipating the very shifting of these gears, or what is it? effects from the reflections of the downward image at play now but i want to dream of this.