ive said before changing ones self to achieve next level is a desireable step
yet whenevr i feel i am losing myself i stop and seek to slow pace to find it again. the change is not of my choosing, but is this the mental experiment that is meant to happen? hypocrisy to not accept?

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perilous crawls, fall upon the disheartened fool.

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living at ls
feels like a tunnel running from world to mourh
every day a taste bud plucked away
and in winter
my relationship with smoking changes
relationship with myself changes
too much in the doing now to come up with a way of doing